mai hi hun

 कुछ ख्याल ,कुछ अरमान

कुछ अनकही बातें हैं दिल में  

 लिखता हूँ सारी बातो को

और पढता भी मै ही हूँ

 बेपनाह प्यार है खुद से

नफरत भी है खुद के लिए'

हरपल का साथी हूँ अपना 

और दुश्मन भी मै ही हूँ

मंजिल दूर है निगाहों से

सफ़र भी मुश्किल है

रस्ते में कई यार मिले फिर भी  

अकेला राही भी मै ही हूँ 

That girl in pink

hey she’s waving at you

Told my friend

I turned around who?

She, that girl in pink tees

She must have mistaken me

As someone else

I don’t know her

Or may be she knows me..

We hurried for the ticket queue

As I neared I heard “excuse me

Can u plz get me 2 tickets”

Here she was pleading

Handing me a 500 rupee note

And I was like why not

Of course , no problem

She thanked twice & gave a smile

Gentle smile, it was

First time I noticed her

Beautiful in her own way

But with clumsy sort of hair

Before I could ask

“Do you know me”

My friends dragged me

To get into the hall

I wondered who she was

May be a friends friend

Or may be some distant relative

In the interval she crossed again

Giving a sheepish smile

My friends went gaga

Asking who she is?

I don’t know

May be she is in

Our university I replied

Movied ended & we left

Our eyes met again on the exit

And she stared me as if saying

Don’t you recognize me?

Her stares were familiar

But I wonder who she was

That girl in pink tees………..

Dunia

काग़ज़ पे लिखी हसीन बातों के
असल ज़िंदगी मे मायने कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये किताबो की दुनिया

यारो ने चाहा तो बहुत हमे
पर उन्हे भी साथ चलना कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये यारो की दुनिया

खवैशें अधूरी है कुछ अभी
पर इन्हे पूरा होना कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये खवाबों की दुनिया

रिश्ते नाते तो बहुत सारे हैं
पर रिश्तो मे अपनापन कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये रिश्तो की दुनिया

यूँ तो जिंदगी बहुत लंबी है
पर हर पल हमने जिया कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये  लमहातो की दुनिया

मेरे चारो तरफ तो भीड़ ही भीड़ है
पर किसी को मुझसे वास्ता कहाँ है
अब नही चाहिए ये दुनियावालो की दुनिया.

औरो के खातिर कोशिश तो बहुत की
पर अब और हिम्मत कहाँ हैं
बस अब नही चाहिए ये दुनिया

Music of 90s & some of my favorite ones

Every great artist doesn't last long but that doesn't diminishes his greatness in any way. Kumar sanu was one of them. He may have stopped working now but he was undisputed boss during the 90s, the most conservative yet romantic decade of bollywood. It was the time when rajshree productions made movies like Maine pyar kiya, Hum aapke hain kaun, Hum sath sath hain ,typical family flicks with great success. karan johar introduced the 'friendship turning into love' concept in movies like kuch kuch hota hai. Shahrukh & kajol were THE jodi & still favorite of many. aamir was at his cheeky best in his starting movies like jo jeeta wohi sikandar & salman was the only hero into body building..But for me the most striking feature of 90s was its music, first time i heard songs of 1942 a love story kumar sanu became my instant favorite.. ek ladki ko dekha to aisa laga jaisa khilta gulab ... what a song that was...then it was do dil mil rahein hain from pardes. his songs from aashiqui were all hits..... kathai aankhon wali ek ladki its slightly less known song but sanu's voice coupled with beautiful expression from shahrukh made it really watchable.. tum mile dil khile ..is another one,...Ek din aap yun hi mil jayenge............ best thing about kumar sanu was that almost 90% of his songs were better than average so its hard to single out a few of them

                      As sanu was nearing the end of his short but brilliant career, sonu nigam emerged. he had good looks along with great voice..... my didi became one of his fans more for his looks i guess.....but he had such a voice that i felt like he was quickly replacing kumar sanu as my favorite..... his mujhe raat din is awesome and still one of my favorites... then his album deewana had some beautiful music..kal ho na ho though is simple in musical terms but with great wordings along with sonu's voice makes it a top song..  panchi nadiyaan from refugee,.. suraj hua madham...resham si hai ye hawayein sanam ..the list can be endless ..

                  apart from kumar sanu and sonu nigam other prolific singer whom i like is udit narayan...his Ae ajnabi from dil se and chaha hai tujhko deserved national award..recenly K.K has given some awesome numbers like Tu mujhe soch kabhi... Shantanu mukhrjee or Shaan, as he is usually called, is also very good. his Tanha dil has always been in my playlist... Recently atif aslam and rahat fateh ali khan has given some terrific numbers like kuch is tarah ,o re piya, tu jaane na, 

                    Strings the pakistani band was my favorite band.. dhaani kept ringing in my ears all day and till today i can't single out the reason... then i watched euphoria...oh god they were so original everything about euphoria was indian...Maeri,dhoom pichak dhoom, kabhi aana tu meri gully, kaise bhulegi mera naam, raja rani, bewafa, dil jo toota, chuimui si tum and many more  their performance was uninhibited.. still today when i cant think of anything to do i watch videos of euphoria 

    Then there is evergreen voice of jagjit singh and pankaj uddhas. hoshwalon ko khabar kya, jab samne tum, meri aankhon ne chuna hai ,chithi na koi sandesh, honthon se chulo tum,kahin kahin se har chehra, tum itna jo muskura rahe  are some of his songs i listen again & again. pankaj udhhas is all about soothing music, his aur ahista, chupke chupke videos are good ones.  

i may have forgotten to mention many good songs because there are more than 400 songs in my playlist and i just randomly play any of them when ever i get time .recently K.K has been the best of lot for his performance in ZNMD and guzzarish..music & bollywood changes with time but music of 90s was something different....those were the days...........

अजीब लड़का हूँ

अजीब लड़का हूँ 
जाने क्या चाहता हूँ
जिंदगी से प्यार तो नही
फिर भी जीना चाहता हूँ

यूँ तो किसी को रुलाया नही कभी
पर खुद का दिल दुखाना चाहता हूँ
सभी रहना चाहते हैं करीब मेरे
पर सब से दूर जाना चाहता हूँ

ज़रूरते तो कुछ खास नही हैं
पर जाने क्या पाना चाहता हूँ
ये उलझन भारी जिंदगी दिलचस्प तो है
पर सुलझा हुआ शहर बसाना चाहता हूँ

खुद को जनता तो हूँ 
पर फिर भी कुछ समझाना चाहता हूँ
अजीब लड़का हूँ 
जाने क्या चाहता हूँ.

If its last day of my llife

I often wonder what

if its last day of my life

what would i like to do

how will i go through

there will be lot of thoughts

may be agony and fear to endure

but amid all these, there are things

 i would do for sure

I would like to thank

my parents, they made me

everything i am today

every time i wandered

they showed me the way

I would like to thank

my friends, for being with me

sharing my sorrows & happiness

for the fun we had together

for helping me night & days

i would like to tell

the girl, i loved all these years

how i wanted us to be together

even though i haven't told her

all my heart wished for, was her

i would like to thank

everyone who came into my life

and played their part to perfection

they may be familiar or strangers

but without them my life would not

have reached this completion.

as the years go by i am sure there will many more people whom i would like to thank...