Aage kya karna hai?

Aage kya karna  hai? Guys don't get worried i am not asking you this question. This is the question which has been haunting me ( & every student) since i passed board exams. One good thing about it is that you know that every Uncle, Aunt or relative you are going to meet will be asking this question so you can fabricate some answer in advance. Its some sort of ritual, no matter what conversation is going on it will invariably lead to my studies and then the omnipotent question "To beta aage kya karna hai". well i try to answer it in simplest of ways to avoid further discussion but even then i rarely get away without a advice or two.

             Today got a call from a relative( to be exact maternal uncle's brother's son) and after some formal talks, the conversation reached to the unavoidable question of Aage kya karna hai. Being a elder he must have felt that he needs to give some advice ( bade hone ka kya fayda jab tak choto ko lecture na sunao). Advice from elders is a good thing but you don't expect Messi to teach Raina to how to play bouncers. You are from different field, you don't know what my thoughts are, you don't know what i am interested in and you come up with your own plan and that too for my future. I tried my best to avoid the topic without getting in some sort of argument.
             
              Sometimes it becomes irritating to tolerate those kind of discussions. Don't get me wrong, advices are always welcome. If someone wants to discuss about my career with me then it means they are interested in my future which is heartening to know. But people should understand that if i am going to do something then obviously i must have given a thought to it. i am not a crazy minded teenager anymore ( i guess i never was). I have always decided what i am going to do and this theory works for me. When you know you are responsible for your decisions and you have got no one to blame, you work harder, you give your best. Fortunately my dad and mom understand me well and they allow me to do whatever i want to. They never objected my ways, it obviously helps that before taking a decision i try to take their point of view. Days like today makes me feel how lucky i am to have parents like them.

      planning to visit them sometime soon, may be at the end of July.

          

Restlessness

They say love transcends boundaries

it can be felt across oceans

they say a girl can read a boy's mind

no matter how hard he tries to hide

Its the umpteenth time i have

typed a message and deleted it

numerous times i have called you

to hear you lovely voice but cancelled it

This strong urge to be with you

is indeed very hard to supress

to stop thinking about you 

to no avail, i have tried hundred ways

Here i am thinking of you

feeling like talking to you all the time

can you feel my heart beating for you

are you aware of my restlessness

If yes, then why don't you tell me

i am dying to hear this from you

if no, why don't you feel my love

is my love not enough for you?

I won't ever let you go

I might not be showing

my love for you

but my heart will

always beat for you

Do you know?

you are the one

i fell for years ago

whenever i saw you

feelings seemed to flow

Do you know?

i can do anything

to make you smile

can even make my world

to stop for a while

Even if i try to go

away from you ever

that will be only to

come back even closer

I know i am good but

for you i will become better

with time my love for you

will go deeper and deeper

 

Given a option, i won't

change anything in you

because you are so amazing

just the way you are

Even you love me a liitle

please don't ever show

because i once got to know this

no matter what, i wont ever let you go

Richest are not the Happiest.

So once again Forbes has confirmed Mr. Mukesh Ambani as India's most richest person which is not quite a surprise. On the global level he has been placed at 19th position on the list headed by the Mexican business tycoon Carlos Slim. Out of top 100 richest people 39 are from United States which gels well with the fact that more than 33% of world's wealth belong to Americans.

                  By now you must be like so what everyone knows that they are the richest. yeah they are the richest but somehow Not the happiest. Yes, you read that correct they are not the happiest, in fact in a recent study carried out by a global survey company they are placed on the middle of the list of happiest countries and almost same goes with other wealthy European countries. Whats more surprising is that developing countries have topped the list of world happiest countries, Indonesia, India, Mexico, Brazil, Turkey being the top five.

             A straight correlation between above two facts quite simply suggests that Richest are Not the Happiest which also leads us to the fact that running after money is not going to make us happy. Now I know why our politicians( never call them leaders,simply they are not) never seem to smile even after having billions and then some more in their Swiss accounts.

       But wait didn't we thought U.S is a better place than ours ? Remember during our childhood ,how we used to brag about our relatives (sometimes fake ones:P)  living in New York ( or London if you are 90's bollywood fan :p) . Does this mean our living standards are better American's and European's. No, absolutely not. It would be wrong to interpret the facts in this way because happiness is a relative state of mind. for example a poor farmer in India would be happy if he is able to feed his family properly and has a roof over his head but a young guy in U.S might be unhappy just because he hasn't got a car or because his girlfriend ditched him for some other wealthier guy.

       This also doesn't mean that richest can't be the happiest, it just underlines the fact that becoming rich doesn't guarantees happiness . Now try telling this to corrupt politicians...why don't I ,well I have got better things to do.  

Forgotten MEMORIES

After a loooong exhausting day i was thinking of unwinding myself by having a late night walk but had to change my mind. Unable to think of anything else to do, i did what everyone else does..logged into facebook. Chatting with one of my old friend conversation took an unexpected turn. Some incident had taken place between him and me and he was giving his afterthoughts on that. Calling it an incident seems an exaggeration, most probably it was exchange of some words between us but i am just not able to remember anything about it. Its been six years which is not a short time but i remember incidents which took place 16 years back so the fact that i am not able to remember it is irritating me and more so because he remembers it so vividly and that incident had a great effect on his life. Thankfully he is mature ( unlike most of my friends :p) and has taken that incident in right spirit.

         When i think of Jalipa, surprisingly i have got lot of memories related to that place. Surprisingly because i was there for only 3-4 months in which i hardly attended classes for 3 months. I knew i am not going to do my 11th there so i was sort of passenger there. Still i met classmates ( now i prefer to call them friends ) who were very cooperative and they made my short stay pleasant. But the thing which i liked most was that there was not much pressure on me to do things in a certain way and the fact that i was joint topper in the board exam makes it even more memorable ( though its of little consequence now ). Few people felt that i should have scored more and may be they were right but the girl who topped along with me was one of the best students i have met. In fact if asked about a "typical good student " she was better than me. So being a joint topper was not bad after all .

         Fortunately i am in contact with most of my Jalipa friends ( after all Facebook is not totally a time waster ) and it feels good to be with them again.

p.s - mate if you are reading this , am sorry i don't remember that incident but you know little things like that, little memories are what that tests relationships and makes it stronger and i hope i have got a lifelong friend in you.

World of DrEaMs

Last night we were together

no one else, just you and me

everything felt wonderful

like a magic, like a dream

The twinkle in your eyes

the innocence on your face

made me forget everything

my heart started to race

Holding your waist

as i pulled you closer

you blushed and trembled

my hands too started to shiver

Felt the midas touch of yours

as you put your hand on mine

wanted time to stop there & then

it was all too beautiful , too divine

You were cuddled into my arms

wanted to stay like that forever

at last whispered into your ear

stay close, never go away dear

would you stay with me forever

asked you again and again

but how will you reply 

you were not even there

oh gosh!!!!! it was a dream

that was never meant to be

reality struck me at once

how can i even think of it

Its too good to be real

and it turned out so

always wanted us to be together

but i have to let you go

can't desires be fullfiled

can't dreams come true

would you please tell me this

can't i have my one wish........... 

World of Facebook and Internet

Only 3 days of non activity on Facebook and some of my friends (To be precise online friends) started wondering if everything is fine with me..by God's grace all is well with me. It feels good to know that someone 1000 km apart is worried for you. But the thing to be noticed is that suddenly your online existence has become important ..much more than you could think of. In my case i have been purposely trying to avoid Facebook for last few days because of some personal reasons.
         
 Anyways i have never been a big fan of Facebook. To me it always seemed a time wasting affair and then there are privacy issues. A few of my Facebook addict friends might find this not to their liking but this is what i have always felt. Receiving friend requests from strangers is what i hate most but sometimes a friend request from someone familiar is much bigger problem. Denying my Didi's request was enough for her to start imagining me chatting with girls . You receive a friend request from one of your younger cousins and you don't know what to do now, obviously you can't deny him but you certainly don't want him to read conversations on your wall.

          I am not saying its the worst thing in the world, it has definitely got good things to talk about. Chatting and private messaging are awesome facilities though it can't replace the intimate conversations we can have over a call. Because of Facebook i have got back in touch with some of my long lost classmates and friends, in fact it was only because of Facebook i was able to talk to my first( & the only one till date) love and get in touch with her, unfortunately things have not been so smooth but its a different story will get into it in some other post.....so what i am trying to say is that facebook is good but not THAT good, at least not to the level of addiction. Its fine if you log in once ( ok make it 4-5 times, sounds more practical ) but certainly not fine if you keep checking your notifications every 10 minutes.

           On the other hand i have always had good things to say when it comes to internet, well almost everyone has got good things to say about it. Now a days it has become such an integral part of life that its almost impossible to imagine a day without it. I have to admit that i am on primary stages of net addiction and thats too only because of my busy schedule i don't get much time for net surfing otherwise online world is just too inviting. Apart from random surfing because of my love for cricket visiting cricinfo has become a ritual, listverse and howstuffworks are too informative to be ignored, once in a while yahoo also comes up with good articles then there is this amazing world of blogs.

                Internet is not only entertaining and informative, it is also useful on day to day basis. I am not a fan of online shopping but still i have been a regular customer of indiaplaza (for books) and  letsbuy.com (for electronics). Paying internet bills, digital tv recharging, credit card bills online are some of the things that my Dad has left up to me and more often than not i get requests ( read it "order" :p ) from Didi to top up her mobile balance. Getting requests from friends at unusual times of the day for balance top ups for their girlfriend's mobile is one thing i have become habitual of, and if any of you are reading this, trust me i don't mind it all in fact i really like the fact that i am able to help you.

        Oh gosh !!!!! had to wish my friend, he turns 22 today ( chronologically 22, am not sure intellectually he is 22 yet :P) ...have to leave this post unfinished , you just can't delay anything when it comes to friends, more so when its his birthday...kyunki har ek friend zaroori hota hai ( ok ok i know you must have got bored of this line but haven't got time to think for some other line)

               

Random Musings

ufff... schedule has become busier & its getting harder to spend some time here. Suddenly life has become harder in last few days because of both personal and academic reasons. Its like a challenge and i have to overcome them. Times have been never like this ,never wanted to be like this but anyways......

      

              Friends wanted to go for Rowdy Rathore but then due to various reasons plan had to be cancelled. Missed Ishakzaade also......

           Can't think of anything else to share with you guys...though there are many things occupying my mind but can't think of right words to describe them. Actually i don't want to write down those thoughts... am going to fight those thoughts and feelings in my heart..am going to test my own strength and determination...May be sometime later i would be able to explain it in better way..